Eternal rain.
Where were you in times of pain?
Where were you, when it began to rain?
Pouring down constantly, all I wanted was love,
After Father left, we were only caged doves,
All I wanted was a hug, a simple embrace, not much,
As you watched me bawl, and left me as such.
Soaked now, from head to toe,
Where were you when my heart was lost in the snow?
You were out sleeping with other men,
Casting aside the young bird in the den.
Beautiful dove, now flightless bird,
I let you destroy me without a word,
Tell me, why must you slam the door?
Don’t you even care anymore?
Letting the Devil beat me every night,
Now I know what it means to live without hope, without light.
Now years have gone by, and you become possessed,
With the drugs and lowlifes you now obsess,
Your youngest child lies beaten and bruised,
And you stand with a smile, almost amused,
To live in such hell, a demon’s scene,
All you ever wanted, was to get your copper clean.
So where were you, when it began to rain?
Where were you when I was drowning in the flood, in the agony and pain?
Your trophy child, now catching dust in the attic alone,
Your neglect shapes my heart of stone,
For all my fears, life shrouded in hate,
Broken in pieces, to this very date.
But things will get better, hopefully,
As this hell hardens us drastically,
For now I stand with my newfound brothers,
Standing under the umbrella of others,
No longer drenched, I just watch the rain,
Where were you, Mother?
I ask myself this, again and again.
